I think I am finally feeling at peace with our failed IVF. I've been able to talk about without crying since letting it all out again on Monday at my infertility support group. Hanging on to failure is only holding me back in reaching my goals. It's not like me to focus on the negatives and things that are out of my control. If anything my new 6th grade class has helped me to remember that. I tell them all the time to just let go of issues that they might have and that sometimes it isn't worth it to hold onto anger or hurt. Now I need to follow my own advice. We are about a week or so away from my period. I can't go forward feeling sad all the time. I have to remember that we another chance at IVF soon and this could be it. I can't control how it all turns out. But I can make sure that I am in the best place physically and emotionally going into it.
"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference."
It's such a hard thing, but you're right..we can't hold on to our failures. I also have these moments with my kids...I always ask them.."What's my favorite 'P' word?" and they answer "patience!" but oh my....it is hard to follow your own advice sometimes. I hope this next round is it for you!! Sending you a hug!
ReplyDelete